Post Valencia blues

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I opened my racing season in Volta Valencia. A 5 day race in south of Spain is an awesome way to kick off the season. Weather was good, racing was hard and I was definitely doing better then I usually am at this time of the year and in my first races of the year. However, after coming back from racing and having had that feeling of competition back in my legs I couldn’t just go back to training. But I had to, because my next race is still a ways away. In order to be even sharper for the next one I took a few days easy and jumped right back into it.

 

Dreams of racing didn’t disappear, so “just” training wasn’t as much fun any more. No one sees or appreciates you training, no one cheers you on during those wet miserable rides. Once you get back you not only have to wash all that dirty kit, bike and make food, but also be ready to do it all over again tomorrow. It’s not all glamour this sport, huh?! I’ve been doing this training thing since November and now they gave me a sniff of racing and just like an addict I wanted to get back on the juice. For my training rides my motivation sunk. Especially on days I wasn’t feeling as great and here’s the story about one of them.

 

I started out my ride on a cloudy day along with Joey Rosskopf and my girlfriend Abby. We’re all peddling away, but I seem to be pushing harder then them. Must be real tired today. Maybe my breaks are rubbing? Maybe I’m just too tired. We keep going, because if I do stop and my breaks aren’t rubbing I’ll be really embarrassed and look weak. Finally I realized that there’s no way my breaks aren’t rubbing. We stop. Sure enough, they are. After doing bit more then an hour together we split as we all have different intervals to do. Cruising by myself in this overcast foggy day after 3 hours of riding I am just an hour 30 in… Surely the stopwatch must be wrong. Hungry already?

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Looks grim, or does it?

My muscles are aching and I don’t feel that comfortable on the bike. Todays ride has me do hard intervals and I’m not sure how I’ll manage. I also have to do total of 5h on the bike. Yuck. I’m questioning if I should just call it and go home. An inner dialogue that’s not helping at all keeps ticking. I crack and stop at a gas station to buy a snickers, marss and a kinder bueno. All three bars are gone within a minute. I never buy these chocolates, just because they’re not good for you at all. However, maybe, just maybe this will get my motivation back up.

 

Keep riding for 5minutes, but still going so slow. Feel like I’m almost standing still. Turns out I have a slow puncture. I stop. Change the tube. The pump I have with I’ve had since 2011 and it’s not smooth at all any more and I barely get four or five bars into the front tyre. Which means the tyre is not true. I’m riding a horse now, because every time the wheel does a turn it bounces.

 

This is the closest I’ve ever been to packing it in on a ride. Pretty low point. I stop once more. Look around. It’s still overcast, even more now as I’m headed to the mountains to do my efforts. Deep breath in. The air is so fresh on a foggy day like this. I love it.

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Don’t need blue skys to smile

There’s no one around on this tiny Spanish road. No sound. Just nature. I love it. Birds fly past and fly off into the distance. The feeling of freedom. I love that too. I love these overcast days. It’s wet, cold and the air is incredibly fresh. Back on the “horseI go and I keep riding for the next 10 mintues without touching my handlebars. Back straight, feeling the wind in my face, feeling the cold breeze in my hair and the air passing in between my fingers. It’s lovely.

 

I didn’t need those chocolates or a voice in my head to motivate me. I just needed to take a deep breath and realize how beautiful this day is and how lucky I am to be doing this. Once on the climb I managed to do my efforts better then ever and with a smile on my face and dirt in my teeth I returned back home refreshed, motivated and ready to head out for another long day tomorrow.

I said it’s not all glamour. Well maybe it is after all.

It’s worth remembering the tiny things you can enjoy. Everyone has days when they have no motivation, or so it seems. However the small things around the simple pleasures so to say may all turn it around.

T.s.

 

 

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The sun is always there.

Savu sezonu jau iesāku Valensijas daudzdienā. Piecu dienu sacensības Spānijas dievidos ir lielisks veids kā iesākt sezonu. Laikapstākļi bija labi, ātrums augsts un pats noteikti jutos labāk kā ierasts šajā gadalaikā. Tomēr, pēc atgriešanās atpakaļ no sacensībām, kad jau esmu sajutis to ātruma garšu nevaru tā vienkārši atgriezties pie treniņiem. Bet jāvar, jo nākamie mači ir patālu. Lai nākamreiz uz starta nostātos ar vēl stingrāku muskuli, es pāris dienas ievilku elpu un ielecu atpakaļ treniņu procesā.

 

Joprojām sapņoju par sacensībām, jo “tikai” trenēties, vairs nav jautri. Neviens neredz un nenovērtē ko treniņos tu esi izdarījis, neviens tevi neuzmundrina, kad ārā līst un ir auksts. Atgriežoties mājās, ne tikai jānomazgā velo, jāizmazgā drēbes, jāpagatavo veselīgas vakariņas, bet arī jābūt gatavam rīt to visu sākt no jauna. Dzīve nav kā pasakā. Nopietnus treniņus jau esmu atsācis no novembra sākuma un tagad man iedeva apošņāt gaisu sacensībās un kā narkomānam, man jau atkal vajag nākamo devu. Motivācija trenēties sarūk. It īpaši dienās, kad nejūtos lieliski un, lūk, stāsts par vienu no tām.

 

Treniņa sākumu iesāku kopā ar Džoiju, bijušo komandas biedru no Hincapie laikiem, un draudzeni Abbiju. Nedaudz apmācies, bet mēs visi mierīgi minamies. Tomēr sajūta, ka man nākas piespiesties vairāk kā viņiem. Laikam esmu saguris. Varbūt bremzītes strīķē? Nē, gan jau, ka vienkārši saguris, jo vakar bija smags treniņš. Turpinam braukt, jo ja es apstātos un manas bremzītes nestrīķētu, es izskatītos vārgs un justos neveikli. Neizturu un apstājamies. Protams, ka bremzītes strīķēja. Apmēram stundiņu kopā nobraucam un dodamies katrs savā virzienā, lai izpildītu treniņa intervālus. Minos tālāk un pēc trīs stundām nobrauktām esmu nobraucis tikai pusotru… Pulkstenis noteikti melo. Izsalkums jau liek manīt?

 

Muskuļi tādi stīvi un uz velo arī nejūtos ērti. Šodienas ēdienkārtē jāpievar diezgan smagi intervāli, es pat nezinu kā to spēšu. Sākas iekšējais dialogs, kas noteikti nepalīdz, jo kopā man tak jāpievar arī piecas stundas. Fuij. Salūztu un apstājos benzīntankā, nopērku snikeru, marsu un kinder bueno. Minūtes laikā esmu tos apēdis, lai arī šos batoniņus nemaz negribēju. Viņi ir tik neveselīgi. Tomēr varbūt, varbūt man palīdzēs atgūt kaut kādu motivāciju treniņam.

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Turpinu braukt vēl piecas minūtes, bet nekā. Sajūta, ka braucu tik lēnām, gandrīz stāvu uz vietas. Izrādās, ka man “lēnais”. Apstājos. Samainu kameru. Pumpis jau man kalpojis kopš 2011 gada, tomēr tagad vairāk par četrām vai piecām atmosfērām riepā nevaru dabūt. Tas tikai nozīmē, ka uz riepas ir tāda kā pumpa. Sajūta, ka jātu ar zirgu, jo katru reizi kad rats apiet riņi, stūre paceļās.

Šis bija mirklis, kad gandrīz devos mājup. Motivācija bija zemāk kā jebkad. Vēlreiz apstājos. Skatos apkārt. Ievelku dziļu elpu. Ir vēl biezāka mākoņu sega kā iepriekš, jo dodos kalnos. Svaigais gaiss ieplūst plaušās. Kā es šo sajūtu mīlu.

 

Uz šī mazā Spāņu ceļa neviena nav apkārt. Ne skaņas. Tikai daba. Kā es šo sajūtu dievinu. Putni pārlido man pār galvu un aizlido aiz skata. Brīvības sajūta. Cik tā ir brīnešķīga. Es mīlu šīs nomākušās dienas. Slapjo asfaltu, auksto un tk ļoti svaigo gaisu. Uzkāpju atpakaļ uz “zirga” un turpinu nākamās 10 minūtes braukt neturot stūri. Mugura izslieta, izbaudu vēso vēju vaigos, nelielās brāzmas matu cirtās un taustu gaisu, kas slīd starp pirkstiem. Dievīgi.

Man nevajadzēja ne tās šokolādes, ne iekšējo dialogu, lai motivācija atgrieztos. Tik vienīgi dziļu elpu un saprašanu, cik brīnešķīga šī diena ir, cik es tomēr mīlu braukt ar velo. Kad beidzot biju ticis līdz saviem intervāliem kalnu pakājē, es tos pieveicu vēl labāk kā parasti. Mājās braucot, smaidīju un vācu dubļus zobu starpās, biju gatavs jau rīt atkal doties garajā treniņā.

Teicu, ka dzīve nav kā pasakā. Tomēr varbūt ir. Varbūt tik tiešām ir.

Ir vērts atcerēties un novertēt tās mazās lietiņas. Ik viens mēs iesprūstam dienās, kad liekas, ka nekas nekustas uz priekšu, vismaz tā liekas. Tieši tās mazās lietiņas spēj apgriezt dienu kājām gaisā.

T.s.

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Motor pacing

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10 thoughts on “Post Valencia blues

  1. Paldies ka padalījies! Visiem ir šādas situācijas (un ne tikai sportā), bet ne visi atrod tās mazas lietiņas kas turpina tevi stumt uz priekšu. Esi vesels un labus rezultātus! Lieku reizi pārliecinos cik patiess ir teiciens: everything is in the head.

  2. I’m glad you stay motivated because your motivation keeps me motivated! Looking forward to great things from you this season! Keep up the good work!

  3. Nice. ‘It’s worth remembering the tiny things you can enjoy. Everyone has days when they have no motivation, or so it seems. However the small things around the simple pleasures so to say may all turn it around.’

  4. Jealous, definitely jealous! My work is behind a pc… Luckily I have a dog, so I go out every day for a long walk. And yes, sometimes you think: bbllgh, bad weather, I don’t want to go. But always, when you are walking, it is good. (eh… except the one day a year it is really raining cats and dogs.)

    • Just find the little things in your day. Walking the dog is definitely a great way to get out. And even when it’s raining cats and dogs it’s better to get out and enjoy the fresh air

  5. Sveiks!

    You have a wonderful attitude toward the dregs of training days. We all have those sorts of challenges as we work toward our goals in everything I can think of. Ballet, piano, skiing … lol

    Watching Paris-Nice as much as possible this week. Bobke Rolls’ recent YouTube video showed Cannondale Dapak team challenged overall more than usual this year. Ranked #50 at this point in season. I have faith you’ll all get thru it.

    Watched ladies Cylance video. Is Abby on a team?

    What’s up with C-D and Amgen ToC this year? Sounds like lots of changes in who’s competing at AToC this year.

    Wishing you, Abby and entire Cannondale Drapak team well thru rest of spring season. Ar veiksmi!

    Ar visu labāko,

    • Abby is riding for Colavita Bianchi.
      I’m not sure what you mean by what’s up with us and ATOC, but the team will be there.
      Thanks for the wishes and hopefully it’ll be a good year

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